Thursday, January 22, 2009

"F" is for Failure

I never pictured myself being like this, but yes, I feel like I have failed Wyatt as his mother. When I am trying to watch a million kids, including my own, I realize at the end of the day I barely have enough energy to stand. Wyatt is usually the best behaved throughout the day so he is getting the least attention. I really don't like how that works. The whole situation is a catch 22. I have to work, if I didn't we would be living on the street. But on the same note, I feel like I am doing this at the expense of time spent with MY son. Don't get the wrong idea here, I am not neglecting my son, I am just not able to spend as much time with him as I would like to. I am going to try to have a half hour of mommy and me time with Wyatt so I can help him develop in every way possible. Maybe then I will stop feeling so guilty.

1 comment:

Bethany Patrice said...

Cara, I look at my mom and how much I love and respect her. She had to work while we were young, and she did daycare in the house with us. She got to get a paycheck and be with her children. I have no resentment towards here, but rather gratitude that she considered her children in to her employment. You are doing great and Wyatt will admire a mommy who can balance work and him!